Another Sadly Ending,,,,,,

I'.m very hoping this could be the last post about you ...
ant then i probably would open the new chapter..

please... no more tears and pain...
please NO More Tears ~~:')

Recently we were in twisted scenario..
i dnot know if GOD designed this scenario between you & me..
or its purely both of us who can't control our emotion at all times..

we've been arguing and apologizing.. but then come back into another " hell of wheels "
both of us are blunddering..
honestly no one have to be blamming each other..
we were still childish dear ~~ =))

i fact you know what those people saying about us...
including your friend..
they sad about one things and it goes into BOM between us..
that we had the same Ego..
no one wants to reduce thier ego when were arguing...

we always made an excusing..

oh yeah do you remember that we were meet in the time when u and your precious GF in " Gap "
then im coming...
i dont mean to bother you.. but finally i trapped in my fucked feelings.. =))

yea ..now everything comes back to nature..
o ya are you happy now?? :)
you can back to her while im still here...
:)

i never ever trust you evrytime u saying u love me..
blablabla.. and its jujst piece of shit " a precious shit reason " evidently...

soo.. what could made me trust that you were different from them??

dear...
i cant even crying myslef anymore..
my tears runs dry..
and just another stucked pain that turns into heavy heartache...

wish this wounds heals as soon as possible..
now all that i can do just singing the mysery over the muddy night...

hugging my pillow... instead i dont get the teddy bear you promised for...

im stepping the day.. while thinking what should i do next...
trying to erase u..

erase u all that you've been in my life..
i dont left those book & memories..
im just keep inside and locked deeply..

Do you remember me,
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side,
Or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming.
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

Evanescence - Tourniquet

Hello.. you
thx for giving me THE VERY BEST LESSON & VERY BEST PAIN After Him.. ^^
that would made me getting stronger & tough...

when you read this post..
i probably.. turns 180 degrees swifting..

 

slowly picking up my dreams that previously shattered & unfocused...

reaching out my brightest future that Allah giving me as the Bash present for surviving this mysery so far...and for much yearss :')

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Sincerely...
 - The One That " Used "  to be You said " your love "

 

GOd.. If u destined us to meet again someday..

would u design those scenario in a right way..??

we.. in a new person & in a stable condition...

so we dont have to be arguing about those lil piece of shit anymore =))

but i know.. you will hear my pray..

i know.. someday. :).